We’re not meant to read the Bible like it’s a competition, study theology til we can spout it like a Pharisee, seek after Presence like it’s a place we can win a ticket to or worse still, earn one, and performance in order to reach or carry God is simply,
not a thing.
And yet we so often berate ourselves, condemn ourselves, unmake ourselves, from who He made us to be, because we simply can’t comprehend, in our mind, in our emotion, in our own understanding, the reality of grace.
We cannot comprehend grace in our own understanding. It’s not possible! So why do we try? Because in the natural we seek measurement. A higher status than others around us, or even than where we personally are right now, because surely if ‘here’ is good, ‘further along than here’ is better. We seek safety in ideas or ideals which are man-made, culturally or societally driven, impacted dramatically of course by our upbringing, and well-sprinkled with an influence of, well, whomever or whatever is influencing us!
If you’re not sure who or what that might be, what are you eating? What are you consuming? Who or what feeds and fills you.
Me, I find that even with a heart desire to seek God as my WHOLE desire, to worship Him in spirit and in truth with all that I do and all that I am, even with the knowing that it’s His Spirit who will cause my right way and path, even with the decision and daily outlook to surrender and submit to Him, abide in Him and be led by Him, have my thoughts and ways established by Him, and know He IS in fact performing all of this because it’s His Word ..
My flesh.
Should I allow it to.
Will tell me, in a voice maybe from my childhood, or perhaps from an idea of who I think I should be, or possibly just in a whisper as old as every generation past and the enemy, that ancient serpent, who knew how to get under the skin of every one of ‘em,
That’s still not enough.
Not like that.
Nope, still not quiet there!
Just a little bit more, hang on girl a LOT more, keep going, push harder still, and if you try with all your might for the entire of your waking hours, well –
at least that will be something!
Stop.
The only way out is to STOP.
Put your face in your hands or your head on the floor as you bow or close your eyes and proclaim NO!
I will not bow to the terrorists of my mind and this world and the one who currently rules it which tell me I am never there, never holy enough, good enough, learn-ed enough, creative enough, productive enough. NO.
And now listen.
What is God saying to you right now?
What is your Heavenly Father whispering within?
He is not demanding. He is not insisting get up and run run run, do do do, perform perform perform, more more more.
He is not thinking well – I’ll be pleased with her if she reads this much of my Word and studies and learns the Hebrew or Greek in this exact way and then does this and this and this and oh – ! She only prayed for this long yesterday so I’m guessing she’ll be making that up today!
Jump little puppet, jump.
NO.
That is not our God.
That is the god of the WORLD.
Twisting the things God has given and put in us, is in this very moment growing in us, and holding at arms length from us what is already given,
in Christ.
Peace.
Wisdom.
Understanding.
Revelation.
Fresh oil.
Encounter.
And in every way the right flow of your time and your day.
These are the things (and so many more) which are already there for us when we just stop,
and hear.
Not for ‘enough time that you did it right or earned it’.
Just – from a place of knowing your relationship with Him is already in right standing from the moment you accepted Jesus.
And so you now come to Him.
For a breath.
For a heartbeat.
For refreshing.
To sit, and hear.
To sing, or create.
To learn, and grow.
Or for simply whatever it IS,
today.
So my love, here is your – my – our – pondering for today –
Instead of ‘what would it look like if it was enough or right’ –
God show me what it just is today.
Now don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.
Kat
