Wake up. Be you. Repeat.

What do you do when you don’t know how to be anymore or even, really, who you ARE anymore?

How do you show up in your business, for your message, for your ministry, or even with overall certainty in your LIFE, if you’ve gone through a complete identity rebirth (the right kind!) and now you wonder if ANY of how you thought you are is true?

What if you actually ARE too loud? Too bright? Too much?

What if you DO expect too much, and in actual fact the pursuit of all of that was only ever an ungodly and a counterfeit thing?

What if you’re not even MEANT to have a business in that way, a message that shakes the world, a ministry beyond the circle of your own home and immediate surrounds?

What if you made up ALL of it, and what if what is true in God is none of it, none of what YOU thought, anyway?!

These are just some of the questions so many of the women in my space have wrestled with as they have journeyed over the past months or few years deeper into faith, or into a faith in Christ in the first place.

Twice already today I have had this conversation.

I have it nearly EVERY day. Largely because it’s been me with me for many of those days. Ha! But yes. Also with you, with those like you, with the women in my space who so desperately want to know they are living with and from purpose, who absolutely DID create a counterfeit, and who are absolutely so willing to surrender all of it, except now are just not quite sure … of any of it.

One of my clients today said she thought she had to become a floral version of her as a Christian. I said me too! Except I thought I had to be a beige or pastel coloured version of me. Literally I went through a moment last year of wearing only neutrals – earth tones – which is so beautiful on who it’s beautiful on but is SO not me most of the time – because I got it into my head that that looked more … I don’t know?

Holy?
Righteous?
Mature?
RIGHT?!

I know full well that holy doesn’t have a colour. (Well MAYBE BRIGHT PURPLE!!)

It’s just an example – kinda crazy one – of how confusing and tangled our thoughts can get when we get it into our heads that we need to perform right for God, measure up, show we’re really willing to surrender (or wear beige!), or whatever else we get into our heads that basically says ‘how God made me is not quite right’.

Oh sure we wouldn’t SAY that.

But yet that’s what we’re doing. What so many of us have been doing. What I spent so much time doing. And what I have supported so many women to walk boldly and with GOD given confidence and ‘unapologetically born to be who you are’ vibes out of doing.

It’s a pretty natural pathway for a high performing sort of a gal who is willing to go all in at things.

It’s a pretty easy entry point for the devil for that sort of gal.

Because it is pretty simple for him to take every.single.part. of how God made you and throw your own wayward choices back at you as PROOF that being like that?

Is no good.

And instead of standing firm and saying GOD MADE ME HOW HE MADE ME DEVIL, NOW BACK OFF IN JESUS NAME, we can often just … miss that.

And instead we think well maybe if I DID just adjust
adjust
adjust
quieten
quieten
quieten
be careful
careful
careful

… I’d be safe. Or I’d find the right way. Or, simply, I’d be in right standing because clearly being all THAT led to a WHOLE mess.

I was saying to my Mum earlier (my parents are up from Melbourne on a one way ticket staying with me, we’re having a house of prayer and rejuvenation and miracles here!) that I am so glad I walked through all that now.

I’m honestly so glad I walked through wondering if I was done with all of it.

I’m so glad that when I thought God was asking me to lay it all down I said YES.

I’m so glad I can truly say I would have given over every part of me and every part of my business, message, ideas for ministry, all of it, if God asked.

Because by going through all of that? What happened was I came into a NEW understanding of who I am, and how I get to be.

This unapologetic. Fierce. Too much. Bold. Blunt. CERTAIN. Grounded. Peace-carrying. Fire and flow of GOD. With neon EVERYWHERE. Is who I am.

I truly tried everything to strip myself of my God-given identity, not realising that’s what I was doing, and, surprise surprise, it didn’t work! It’s still here! I’m still here! And when God said “are you willing to walk away from all of it?”, He didn’t then say “okay go ahead”.

He just asked if I’m willing. I took that to mean He wanted to and pretty much announced my own departure for a day or two before He showed me. Ha! But no, He just wanted me to see that in the end He made me how He made me and that that is for ASSIGNMENT.

Gorgeous, you are here for assignment.

That’s really it.

The assignment?

It’s pretty simple actually.

Wake up.
Be you.
Repeat.

So … what would that look like for you today? What is the day God ALREADY fashioned for you, which you now get to say yes to?

And what would it look like to walk forward in it just for THIS day?

That’s all you need to know.

Oh and also?

Original Design is waiting for you!

Doors are open for just 3 more days.

We are live and we have begun!

And?

Your place is waiting.

OH this is good.
It is GOD.
And?
It is freedom, expansion, joy, and BOLD walking forward with what you’re here to carry.

Come see.

https://katrinaruthministries.com/originaldesign

And don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat