Lord let what I write be of you, or let me not bother at all.
Do you ever find yourself wishing you had a simpler assignment?
How easy would it be to just produce content, or even create entire courses, products, teachings, with the goal ONLY of making money and reaching more people?! Sure, helping ’em in some way, but really just ANY way you could monetize and mass produce.
Not saying there’s not hard work required for that, and at least a modicum of intelligence, never-mind marketing nous, but think about it … if all you had to do was brainwave something you could churn out on repeat, it’d be a walk in the park. Theoretically.
In actual practice, at least for somebody like you, somebody like me, women like us who are carrying something which burns in our bones and is meant to be released only in and by the flowing river of the Lord, it’s not easy at ALL because we just … can’t. Don’t. And ultimately, won’t, even though we may at times try, or try to try, because for a brief moment in time we thought ‘maybe I CAN just follow the steps and join the dots and hoop jump this thang to get a result, maybe I even SHOULD! Maybe it’s what God has even been waiting for me to figure out, aha!’
After enough back and forths of this kind we eventually, however, get to a point of heavy-sighed reality and accept the fact that it’s just not what we came here for, and we don’t have it in us to do it that way, not really even a little bit.
Heavy-sighed because even though it actually IS incredibly difficult to try and cajole yourself into performing as somebody other than yourself, it can seem like such a wistful dream.
Or is that just me?
‘Why do I have to be the one tasked to carry something so weighty, Lord?’
‘Why does it ONLY have to be from the lit fire, the fire lit with heavenly oil ignited in the rivers of the Lord and UNMISTAKABLY of you?’
‘Why does every simple thing I do have to originate from the throne room, can’t I just close my eyes to all that for a second and roll up my sleeves and just BUILD something one proper little primary colour at a time for once?’
‘WHY DOES IT ALWAYS HAVE TO BE SO INTENSE AND ANOINTED?!’
Of course the truth is, we wouldn’t have it any other way.
The truth we already KNOW is, those sort of thoughts, the here and there exasperation we feel at not being like everybody else (even though if we were we’d LITERALLY want to scratch our own eyeballs out rather than look at anything we produce!), the idea that it IS heavy or arduous or something we’d rather not have to be dealing with is all just … a moment. It’s our flesh having a moment. Which is fine.
And we don’t even need anybody else to tell us what my friend told me a few weeks ago when I was having such a moment and said sometimes I wish I could be happy just starting a cute little beachside bookstore cafe, which was “but we need you, Kat. You’re a warrior”.
This is a new friend, actually. And she doesn’t even know that the movement God gave me 18 or so months ago, which I finally walked over a line of committing to build a month or so back, is called Warrior Daughters Rising.
I’m always amazed when people who haven’t known me for very long, typically people who have the Holy Spirit I mean, and discernment, and are prophetic, so it’s not THAT amazing, but still, when they see straight to the core of who I am and that I’m here to lead at the frontlines, sword drawn and flames spilling off of it.
This happens often in environments where I’ve barely opened my mouth yet, so it’s not as though they already know my business or leadership background or saw me in action.
It’s just … who I am.
And it’s just … who you are, too. Isn’t it?
I know this, because I know that I’m not here to speak to those who just wanna make a little money online, pump out some products or books, or even fill huge rooms at their events.
Nothing wrong with any of that, or with a big social platform, or any measurement or marker of success. ALL of that can fit under the exact banner of ‘and all these things will be added to you’ (Matt 6:33), and can be precisely what God has given you to steward!
BUT.
And it’s a big but.
It’s a let that heavy exhale OUT ’cause we’ve got work to do but.
It’s a LET’S JUST SEE IT FOR WHAT IT IS THEN CONTINUE ON AS WHO WE ARE but.
(She writes with a heavy sigh, because somehow that was just the pre-vibe to today’s drop in).
NONE of that stuff is what you and I are here to wake up to.
NONE of it is what our outlook should be when we think about getting after it in our business or creative work.
And NONE of it is a relevant wealth strategy, either. In case you were wondering.
You cannot create wealth anyway from a place of the wrong service.
How much longer were you planning to keep bashing your head against that wall trying?
What WE are here to get after, is the dripping flowing burning presence of God and HIS stirring and bubbling over for how that comes out of us relevant to our businesses, and the ministry we each have of being fully and unapologetically who God designed us to be.
Yes this is HEART-WRENCHING sometimes.
If you’re trying to hold on to an old heart of stone, a dead at the foot of the cross identity, an outlook that you are your own provider or way-maker, or any kind of citizen of earth mindset at all.
So, when it does feel like that and you have a moment of wishing you were at least a little more ‘normal’ … just look elsewhere again. Look higher. And see once more without eyes, the reality of what it is that God has put in you and is READY TO SET ALIGHT AFRESH DAILY.
You and I, we are the ones who have to wade into the waters of the Lord every single day.
We have to hoist ourselves off the dry riverbank which for some reason can seem so tempting or at least safe, and we have to turn away again DAILY from the idea of building something there.
We have to look at everybody all around us, as we walk into the often freezing cold and in that moment NOT inviting river, watch as they determinedly build houses the Lord isn’t part of but which look OH so impressive or OH so as though they’re going to take ’em somewhere, and we have to WALK FORWARD ANYWAY.
Once again into the not knowing.
Once again surrendering our all.
Once again saying Lord consume all of me.
Once again knowing that if He isn’t in it, we don’t want it!
Once again knowing that not a single ‘i’ of our work should be dotted if it wasn’t strategy from heaven and the overflow of presence we soaked in to do so!
Is it hard?
Ha!
OF COURSE IT’S FREAKING HARD.
But not as hard as dutifully getting up again today,
lifting your head a little today,
and then bashing it bloodied and bruised against a wall of your own making again today, which you already know,
you’ll never get through.
That’s all.
Oh and also?
The oil always comes,
and the floodgates always open,
to those who wait.
Now don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.
Kat
PS
The Academy for Women Who Burn is open, and?
A completely new invite page.
If you’ve read the page previously in the times I’ve referred to it yet never fully released it, this one is FRESH.
I realised I had been … scared. Honestly. Of what I was really here to do, the depths of it, and of getting it ‘right’.
So instead of just letting the thing be the thing that God has put in me to pour out for you, I let it become a patchwork quilt of words of me trying to get my SELF there.
Into a place He has already taken me!
All of which is to say?
BABY I AM THAT INTENSE AND FIERY.
I suspect,
you too.
And so without further ado, after there has been SO much ado,
I proudly invite you into WOMEN WHO BURN.
The actual thing.
At the actual price (!).
With the actual fire.
And the place where together we will walk together, war together, POUR together, the full unaplogetic and unfiltered fire God has given us to be in the marketplace and beyond.
It’s where we actually do this thing,
every single day we call today.
AND I’M SO EXCITED TO WORK WITH YOU HERE!
https://katrinaruthministries.com/womenwhoburn
Calling Forth, Equipping and SEEING SENT the Daughters of the Lord Who Burn, and Desire to Live Burning in Business, Ministry, and Life.
For you.
