REJECTING DOUBT. And a(nother!) personal share.

We moved into our beautiful new house yesterday.

Oh man. What a mission it was, is, is going to be for at least a couple more days and that’s even with having a full team of packers and unpackers working like legends on both ends.

Not to say I’ve been sitting on my hands though! The last few weeks have been an ultra-marathon of God showing me the new house in a vision, sighting it 2 hours later, getting confirmation it was ours 5 days later – an earthly nod to the confirmation I already had in the spirit – and moving, with exactly that much notice, 8 days after that. Yesterday.

Lemme just tell you that preparing the particulars of a full two-storey home move in 8 days as a person who has in her pre-convicted-like-woah life procured just a teeny bit more stuff than she needs, even after an extensive and dramatic declutter and donate is … intense.

Add to it preparing in the same amount of time to now list said beachside house for sale within another week or so from now, and the fact that that requires project managing about 20 different amazing men and women for all the various glam-ups and clean-ups of the property and phewwwww. It’s been a whirlwind. Praise God for packers / unpackers because physically I could not have done this without them! Emotionally who knows haha.

But let’s come back to the whole new beautiful house thing. The rejecting doubt thing. And a few other things God has been revealing to me around walking over the threshhold to the NOW promised land, and how the enemy just tries to convince you that didn’t happen at all!

This story goes back to February when I first started making moves to sell my beachside house, but then got side-tracked by a pesky little cyclone which caused quite a bit of delay. Repair work mostly done, I began house-hunting again nearly 2 months ago and let’s just say that swiping on properties? Almost as endlessly tiresome as swiping on dating apps!

Through it all though, one thing I kept saying to the kids and myself was that God WILL reveal our exact perfect house when it’s time.

You know what’s kinda funny?

In retrospect it’s so easy to see where we go into our own understanding and strength to ‘make sure’ something God is leading us on will happen. We think we ‘obviously’ should be doing SOMETHING, or MANY things, because surely there is ‘our part’, or else ‘how can it happen?’

But when God’s grace comes along and by His Spirit there is CLEAR action to take, well – it’s exactly that. It is clear. It is definite. It is ‘how it is’. And at the right time it is GO.

Makes you wonder why on earth you ever do anything if it didn’t come from that definite propelling!

Except, well, this is what being a kid is about, isn’t it?

Learning. Experimenting. Endlessly asking. Testing. Trying. Pushing. Figuring out. Wanting to do it our way. Thinking it won’t work if we don’t! And then add to that whatever we might be individually carrying as far as thinking we need to prove ourselves to God, show we are putting enough effort in, jumping through hoops we named significance and boy oh boy.

It’s a lot.

Eventually though, and only ALWAYS if you do in fact live a life of continual looking to God, surrendering, learning to her from Him, be in the dance with Him, catch the beat of Him …

the crystal clear sparkling sunny waters of certainty spring forth.

And once again you wonder, in DEEP exhale, how on earth you ever thought it could be anything other than exactly this which was SO obviously God and couldn’t not be!

That’s what this house, which I’m sitting in now silence finally on the eve of our second day here, still surrounded by about 76 of the 150 boxes we arrived with, was and is.

God LITERALLY showed me this house in a vision in my prayer time! The exterior and entrance way is extremely unique, there is no other house like this one. I then looked it up online. Went to the inspection 2 hours later. And as I said, less than 2 weeks later … in fact today is 2 weeks from the morning He showed it me … here we are.

Not only that, it is not quite in the area I was looking and is OH SO ‘why didn’t I clock?’ that perfect location wise.

Not only NOT only that, it has MORE than everything all 3 of us desired in our now dream house. To a point of God just being EXTRA about it! (One) example: my son asked if we could have a cinema room in our new house. I said we don’t really need that. Guess what there is?

The most luxy cinema room I’ve ever seen in a house, and I’ve seen a few!

The pool and garden area is perfect.
The house feel is home-y already.
The cupboard space is spectacular.
And the kitchen is SO much better than the beach home, despite all ITS definite wow, AND has under benchtop LED lighting, which is really just a vibe.

I do want to mention this. And it’s a whole ‘nother blog. But if you’re thinking ‘I wish I heard from God with that much clarity’, I want to tell you to do as I’ve done relentlessly these past few years and keep speaking and praying scripture which is that you DO, and I ALSO want to tell you that there was SO much head-butting, exhaling, gradual surrender and growing faith required before I got that vision.

It was stressful in the natural.

Fortunately, as God’s kids, we have the option (and responsibility!) of opting out of being led by the natural. In fact we need to learn to repeatedly quiet our soul, be still, and once again know He IS God.

I am so grateful for the journey to here. The lessons have been extraordinary! My reverence for and even just REALITY of God has gone up tremendously. What’s also grown is my sombre recognition of the need to repent for not looking to Him more fully, and with consistent reverence and awe.

Best of all, the lead in to being here, not just because of the house journey, but SO many other things I’ve been walking through in life and faith, has been a beautiful deepening of my ability to receive the love of the Father or, if I’m being fully transparent, even to receive it.

I want to praise God all day long because HE caused all of this, HE has brought me over the threshhold and literally TOLD me I’m now in my Promised Land, it’s all Him and only Him!

Gorgeous, He NEVER leaves or forsakes us.

But what about the doubt?!

Would you believe me. If I told you. That after ALL of that. And the excitement, joy, ‘wow’, and gratitude of my children as well as me for all God has done for us. That last night I laid my head in bed here in our new home for the first time and here is what I thought:

“What if this is the wrong house for us?

“What if I didn’t hear from God at all on this?”

“Maybe I should have got a bigger house? A more modern ‘schmick’ one? Maybe the fact that I love the slightly vintage home-y vibe means I’m undervaluing myself? Maybe we shouldn’t even be selling the Mermaid Beach house? Maybe it won’t sell for ages anyway, and think of all the hassle that’s gonna ’cause; we should have just stayed there!”

“Man, what if I’ve really screwed everything up?!”

And then it hit me.

In a breath.

Thank you JESUS.

I WILL NOT ENTERTAIN A SPIRIT OF DOUBT. Which seeks to undermine and destroy the goodness God HAS done in my life. Which seeks to have me agreeing with fear, uncertainty, and a bondage mindset! Which seeks to convince me to walk myself and my babies right back out of the Promised Land God has brought us into, and you KNOW I don’t just mean this house!

Phewwwww … does anybody else feel me here?

I realised that I could OH so easily let doubt and all its endless octopus tentacles of despair be valid.

I could give doubt a voice.

I could start speaking it out to my friends.

What if this, what about that.

I could dance with fear, with worry, with intimidation.

And I absolutely could derail God’s plans for me, all because I absolutely could choose to carry on a 4+ decades and a few generations long pattern of ‘maybe you don’t actually get to live the life you dream of, not quite, not really’.

Or?

I could reject doubt as the evil spirit and assignment it is.

And that doing so is not a one off thing by the way.

It is a decision and a DISCIPLINE.

But also?

It is a HEARTBEAT.

In which you hear those thoughts, those whispers, those worries, and you simply say NO.

NO devil, I resist you.

My God has provided for me, and OH He is the God of more than you could ask, think, know or imagine, according to the power which IS Him within me!

Oh Holy Spirit.

I thank you that you’ve instructed me in grabbing hold of that power.

ONWARDS.

And to you I say,

Onwards my love.

He has got you.

More than you could ask. Think. Know. Or imagine.

Now don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat

PS

Gorgeous,

The Leader Switch is here.

6 weeks 1:1 with me.

It’s time to walk over the threshold.

AND NOT LOOK BACK.

Details + ALLLL the exhale + know if it’s for you here, and then DM me to talk.