Where to start with the last week, the last few weeks, the last year, the last 20 months, the last day, the last breath?
Did I start my email newsletter last week like this? Hm. Maybe!
Here is where we are at:
Moment by moment and breath by breath I am learning to flow with the Lord on what and ONLY what He is showing now.
Every day a new dance with Him … every thought or move originated from Him … every notion of what I imagined it to be or thought made SENSE,
gone.
WILLINGLY, I might say.
Because if there’s one thing I’ve really learned to learn and KEEP on learning this past year or two it is that actually?
No I do not want what I think I want.
I do not want the Kat version.
I do not want what my flesh craves.
I do not want a greater fulfilment of ME.
And I certainly do not want to in any way continue to be an example of a woman pursuing … herself.
In the place I sink beyond myself, forget myself, leave myself, and ultimately uncover the original design of where my self was meant to land, breathe from, live from, IS from, all I want is that vision beyond the vision in the place where I finally lift my eyes from THIS world,
and see His.
As a citizen of heaven, why on earth would I choose even a MOMENT responding to the teensy little temporal bubble we call life down here?
I get that this is too much for a lot of people.
It’s too much for ME sometimes even!
But that’s only when I look through the lens of my soul.
In my spirit … when I meet with Holy Spirit … there is a certainty, a peace, a refreshing, and a joy joy joy of a way of being which means everything I do, create, put out, pour forth, or AM, is backed by, rested in, and powered by the CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE HIMSELF.
I guess what I’m saying is yes I did lay the old Kat down to rest again, by the power of Christ in me, and I say yes yes yes to new identity ONLY!
But can I be honest?
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NO it’s not freaking easy sometimes! No I am not just floating around in a holy bubble of certainty all the time, softly and gently speaking of the ways of the Lord! YES I wonder at times if I’m crazy! And in particular I wonder if I am SO crazy to be putting down,
letting go,
laying TRULY to rest,
the ways of dancing and prancing on the internet being the Kat I MADE myself to be.
Ya know … the whole ‘and then she madeth the millions by being fully her’ thang?
The truth is God has clearly shown me, in the gently yet persistent way that He does, and on REPEAT I might add; ever deeper layers … that where we are going?
Those things can’t come.
Or, as He said just this morning:
The new thing I am bringing you into is not a continuation of the old.
And if you keep on trying to carry your SELF … you don’t allow me to carry you … and in doing so you also don’t allow me to carry you TO the places I have prepared for you.
I wonder,
could you join me this week in saying yes God. I trust you to be my ENTIRE plan. Even if it means letting go of everything I always thought it would SURELY be. Could you?
For me this is a releasing of the final strains of … well SURELY God will still want my entrepreneurial and money-making skills! Surely I will now do what I did before just … #GodVersion.
Please know:
I am not saying He won’t, or I in some way won’t.
But for right now what is tolling on repeat inside of me is one million percent NOT that. So, maybe it’s one of those ‘He’ll have me pick it up again later’ sort of things. To be honest I really don’t care.
All I want is His plan in my fulfilled.
The yearning I have submitted to and thus allowed to grow is to BE HIS VOICE.
This is what I believe I was designed for.
The truth is I always have.
But hey – !
I did a pretty good version of counterfeiting it 😉
A request?
Don’t email or message me and tell me I’m being too hard on myself / not acknowledging the good in all I did previously / etc.
I absolutely get all of that.
And … it is with ONLY an exhale and gratitude and excitement I now look down the barrel of my EVERY move be about becoming.His.word.
A walking epistle.
The voice of the Lord.
The complete removal of my own designs of me.
Are you joining me?
Will you?!
Your place by donation: https://katrinaruthministries.com/asfarastheeyecansee > Day 4 drops today. It’s certainly not too late to join us!
The community and the space He gave us: https://katrinaruthministries.com/thesecretgarden
Prophetic mentoring sessions are open! And God said … $280. YES THIS IS CRAZY.
But only through the lens of Kat being who she said 😉
Purchase here and then DM me to book: link
I love you!
And I’m praying for you.
Now don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.
Kat
PS.
A few things:
God said no more Facebook.
So that’s about that.
Also, currently I (apparently!) am not really posting on IG.
I await my instructions!
He did say: no more talking about what to DO. So no more instructing people on the doing. Soz!
I know for sure He will have / is having me release prophetic words at times. At the moment He is discipling me further into His ways and most of the prophetic visions and words I receive I am NOT being instructed to release. Although phew a BIG one came through on our Queens Roundtable zoom this morning! Eep – there are places open in the Queens Roundtable! Just saying … https://katrinaruthministries.com/thequeensroundtable
And by His grace He has brought me back to what THAT was actually meant to be about (per the page + prophecy) as opposed to all the stuff I added!!
Also –
My blogs are, per the above, not being posted on Facebook anymore. They will be emailed out and can also be found at https://katrinaruthministries.blog/ (I AM IN LOVE WITH THE SPACIOUSNESS HERE!)
And – !
I am writing a new prophetic book. I can’t wait to release it to you! I sense the timing will be towards the end of As Far as The Eye Can See, which the link to donate for is above, and is a 30 day course.
Okay that’s it!
