Never before have I been this happy, lit up, deeply at peace, content, and ASSURED of who I am, WHOSE I am, and where I am going.
And never before have I felt as though I have NO FREAKING CLUE ABOUT ANYTHING BUT WHAT I DO KNOW, THE TEENSY LITTLE BIT?
OH,
I know it well and I’m holding on to it.
Life this year started off just fine and dandy. Ticking along as life does, ever aligning, ever growing, ever knowing that yep! Whatever I can dream of and say yes to IS what’s gonna happen, so never mind the bumps. I know how to roll with it, I LIVE that stuff.
Even though there were a few changes in my life which I had not in the PHYSICAL seen coming, my spirit saw it way off and indeed I’d actually prayed these adjustments into reality so really, again – no surprises.
I was pretty set on a 2023 focus of things like which big changes I’d be making in the business this year … what my investment future was looking like … when my next / first ‘real’ (I don’t count Bali lol) international post Covid trip would be, oh, and that’s right –
this little decision I’d made end of 2022 that no matter what?
This year would be the year I put God first.
It was a head based decision. I didn’t really even know what I meant by that. He’s always been in my life!
Adding to this decision was that, seemingly out of nowhere, I decided I’d have my first ever word for the year.
“My word for 2023 is CONVICTED”, I said. “I’m going to be CONVICTED”.
>>>> INSERT 10,000 X 10,000 LAUGHING EMOJIS AT THE ME WHO HAD NOOOOOO IDEA WHAT SHE WAS DECREEING. <<<<
January moseyed on. I was wrestling with what was ‘right’ in my personal life. Already knowing what was but pretending otherwise. I went camping, fully off grid, with my brothers, parents, and all the kids. I sought God a lot. Read about Him and His ways a lot. Prayed a lot. Had some visions. Didn’t ‘feel’ much.
February came along. I was being diligent and disciplined about my decision to put God first. I was not especially feeling it as such. I was just following through and dutifully opening my Bible and praying first thing. I was using a timer to sit in a minute of silence to wait on and hear from God, because it felt really hard to sit still. Check check check. That’s what I was doing. Tick tick tick. And then on with my day. I had no idea at this point how seriously God had taken my DECISION to put Him first and my STATEMENT that I would be convicted. THANK GOD HE DID!
In February I reconnected in the most supernatural quantum flow what even is this way with a very long term client of mine, years in, on and off, who I hadn’t spoken to in ages, and who I knew was an awesome woman but didn’t ‘know’ know, and God basically just threw me at her. Within days she’d become my mentor, my go-to, my sounding board for a continual stream of wonderments thoughts revelations and heartfelt seekings, and a woman whose anointing was being shared with me by the MOMENT. By the end of February, maybe early March we were sisters and INCREDIBLE friends. Like … lifelong peas in pod this could ONLY be a God thing sort of thing.
Meanwhile I COMPLETELY let go of a relationship from last year I’d been one foot still in on, and I gave my sexuality back to God. I had the man in question listen to me read a letter I’d written to God on such to him, and then I one by one went through all the things he’d said to / over me on possession of me, and canceled all these words to him and before God.
At home, I started to clean things up left right and centre. God was speeding me up. I didn’t quite know this yet, I just knew something had taken over me and my focus was changing daily. I didn’t know my MIND and every part of my being was being RENEWED. I had no idea it could actually get MORE full on, at that moment!
I threw out anything even POSSIBLY questionable, and destroyed about 20k worth of satanically governed designer brand items. Amongst other things. I renounced yoga. Masturbation. Anything even remotely new age. Cut soul ties with everyone I could think of. Dealt with a LOT of ‘in my flesh’ battles. Oh, and I was consecrating as part of a 21 day fast which was really a consecration. THAT caused some pretty hefty reveals. Things started to move with even more speed. Some friendships were removed by God so fully that I literally had no choice and didn’t wanna. A million other things happened. Somewhere that month I put my eyes up and realised I had fully started falling down a slippery slope of God and I had NO IDEA WHAT ON EARTH WAS HAPPENING, BUT BABY?
I was convicted.
LOLOLOL AND THEN SOME.
I thought hm – I suppose over the next few years my business will shift fully to be centred around God. AS I’VE ALWAYS KNOWN IT ONE DAY WOULD. Everything I’ve done, I’ve done knowing I’m ignoring my true anointing, in the way I’m meant to be and in WHO I’m meant to be, and the ticking inside of me.
In March my newfound sister friend, her husband contacted me to let me know I had a new brother, and then got on a zoom with me to give me some relationship keys. This resulted in some BIG strongholds being torn down. Boundaries being laid. And some definite … upset. Same month, ish (I can’t keep up) my sister came RUNNING back to God from her heavy involvement in the New Age and I was in SHOCK. Only weeks earlier I’d been screaming out to God to save my sister, and I thought this is gonna be a long haul. Early March I had a dinner with her in Melbourne where she was … open. I never saw THAT coming later that month. God saw and sees everything. What a miracle. Thank you God for answering the DECADES of prayer, for both of us.
Life kept getting faster. I kept falling further still into God. It felt like nothing else mattered, and I was interested in nothing else; aside from obviously the things I already AM, and then being more in HIM in those. But attention for anything not ESSENTIAL? Gone.
It was all okay. It was all what I was READY for. It was all what was always meant to happen. 4 days after the zoom with my friends husband, when I’d done everything he had told me to do, he said how amazing it was I just went and did it. Most people would take 6 months with something like this (it was extremely confronting, and also painful for other people, BUT REQUIRED FOR THEM AND ME), and then not even do it.
“When I know I need to do something I just do it”.
I’m not interested in further delaying blessings and receiving once I understand something. I’ll just do it.
And I kept falling head over heels day by day into God.
April was much the same. I don’t even remember anything much except that all I was doing dawn til dusk was praying, reading, studying, seeking, hermitting from all my usual friends, making a few new amazing Christian friends, visiting different churches in the evenings, being led led led led, oh and BASICALLY DESOLATE IN TERMS OF ANY SORT OF CREATIVE MOTIVATION. I was doing and flowing with what already WAS in my business, but really I just felt … dry. Relevant to anything new. I was worried I was being lazy, and also spending TOO much time obsessively before God. But I couldn’t seem to stop.
I followed His instruction to go to a 3 day leadership conference, which I signed up for on 2 hours notice, only to get there and realise it was LITERALLY just for existing church leaders from all around the country. UN-COMF-TOR-BLE. But with 2.5k people in the room it wasn’t like I had a sign on me pointing me out, and? God had told me to be there.
The event was called OUTPOURING and I tell you – I didn’t go thinking a switch would be flicked in me, I definitely went for an OUTPOURING, well I went because God told me to; that’s the truth of it. But I wasn’t expecting anything especially. I’ve learned that’s the best way to move forward in ANY thing.
The week before this God told me to start Katrina Ruth Ministries. “I know God! But not YET, surely!”.
– “Yet”, He said. Then gave me the tagline, which is on the banner top of my KR Ministries IG. “BUT NOT YET!”, I said.
– “YET”, He said. Then sent me to scripture in Timothy which I then found was literally WRITTEN to fan the flames of Timothy’s ministry.
“Okay God”, I said. “Yet”.
The day after the OUTPOURING event I sat here in my warehouse and outta nowhere wrote up in 20-40 minutes two ideas God gave me which since then have made BIGGGG monies and basically? I don’t even know what I did.
THE DRY ARID LAND OF MY SPIRIT HAD BEEN BROKEN. The money was just a follow on, I mean the SWITCH flicked in my SPIRIT and all of a sudden I was SIMULTANEOUSLY doing nothing but God things all day every day but ALSO on fire creatively and could.not.stop.all day. I also received two incredible prophetic words whilst being anointed with oil during that event. I’m standing on those hard! One of them will impact you 😉 the other is something I’ve longed for and didn’t know if I dared to believe. BABY I’M BELIEVING!
May hit and oh boy.
WHAT IS EVEN HAPPENING?! That’s basically the vibe of this month. I have done what feels like full time creative flow all day every day. Been fully time before God on my knees and face all day every day. Been BLOWN AWAY AND AWED by what He has created through me in WARRIOR LEADER, the course He told me to make and is making with me, for women who want to be consumed by fire from heaven, which btw is now an ongoing thing not 6 weeks (msg me for deets). Dealt with some of the heaviest warfare ever with my children and home. Oh, yeah – I didn’t even mention the level of spiritual warfare in my life especially Feb + March just BROUGHT TO THE SURFACE, and having to speed learn all the stuff imprinted into me since childhood on the demonic and how to deal with it. Man oh man. There was some PUSHBACK on my fall into God. The fall which will never end.
May, what else? I won’t even tell you everything, it’s too much. But right now, May 26, the summary?
IT’S LIKE I’VE BEEN IN A SUPERNATURAL BLENDER ALL DAY EVERY DAY, MOST DAYS CHUCKED ON THE OPERATING TABLE FOR A BIT OF QUICK HACK JOB TYPE SPIRITUAL SURGERY (always perfect in God but BAM), then chucked back out into the world to do business life mentoring kids deal with the enemy and also be tested in new ways in my physical being, and that’s maybe like … 1% of it.
We’re talking daily visions, dreams, revelations, ACTUAL miracle occurring in my womb, lolol ‘actual miracle’ … it’s been non stop miracles every day, but this was a BIG thing, and very very clear promises of exactly what is going to happen in areas I long ago,
lost faith,
which is now
RESTORED IN A WAY IT NEVER WAS.
Boy oh boy have I surrendered so much and I know I’m just getting started.
Boy oh boy has it been SO FREAKING FULL ON I SOMETIMES DRIVE ALONG WONDERING WHO I EVEN AM.
Boy oh boy do I shriek WOW GOD WOW because I can’t even BELIEVE what He just did every day but at the same time I feel, well –
of course!
And just wait til I tell you, if I do, the vision He showed me in prayer this very week for this BUSINESS, and you! The intercession! The breaking! The REVEALS!
And through it all –
Boy oh boy I’ve never been so deeply at peace and rest and certainty.
Whilst so absolutely eyes wide open shocked at what has happened to and in me. At how nearly everyone who comes to me now is sent by Him.
And laughing my head off at the me just weeks back who thought “oh – ! Maybe in a few years the whole thing will just be about God”.
A few weeks back, in the midst of all this, I wrote a new mission statement for my business. I was Holy Spirit led on this as I wrote –
“Strip it all back, and make it be of God”.
HA!
And for my ministries pages and work I heard – “be led”.
God,
I’m being led.
AND I AM SHOOK ALL DAY EVERY DAY EYES WIDE OPEN GIDDY WITH JOY AND GLEE TO BE YOUR DAUGHTER WHILST SIMULTANEOUSLY FEELING AN URGENT NEED TO RUN LIKE THE WIND TO ENSURE EVERYONE KNOWS. AS YOU STRIP BACK EVERYTHING NOT JUST OF HOW I DID BUSINESS, BUT OF HOW I DID LIFE,
AND ME.
Thank you.
Thank you.
THANK YOU.
I’M HERE FOR ALL OF IT, I’LL TAKE SUPERNATURAL SURGERY AND VORTEX FLOW ALL DAY EVERY DAY IF THAT’S WHAT YOU HAVE FOR ME!
But I hear God say, to you and to me right now as I close this –
“Rest, my child, rest. Abide in me. Let my Word continue to abide in you.
And I will give you the land that is yours”.
And you know what?
He already did.
I’m just sitting here in my big leather chair at the warehouse waiting for the moment when whatever the next bit is plops down from where it’s already down in heaven.
As surely as the rain or snow which leaves will hit the earth, will the words from Gods lips land and do the same.
And that,
is my life update.
hbu?
