The #1 way you’re going to miss it, miss destiny, miss the work you’re really here to do, in the way which could only be and was always meant to be from YOU, is by missing identity.
By missing the reality of who you already are, and instead giving another day another day another day for pursuing the idea of who you think you should be. Or of who you imagine you already would be,
if you were ‘her’.
Ah, ‘HER’. The elusive, glimmering, shimmering, can’t quite make her out yet oh so hopeful mirage of possibility you hang your daily striving on and allow to COMPLETELY sway you from who you already her.
The siren song of a life beyond the now, and a dream fulfilled which is always, only,
one more push away.
Do you know that sometimes I feel I’ve been chasing ‘her’ for so long that my entire perspective of what life even IS is through a lens of who I think I have to be in order to catch her?
One of the very first things I ever published online, nearly 20 years ago now, was an ebook titled ‘How to Be That Girl’.
And yet, when I look through the lens of my own not enoughness, I’m STILL trying to figure out how to do enough or be enough to be that girl.
The truth is that even with tens of millions made,
hundreds of thousands of humans all around the world impacted or served,
becoming ‘the’ coach to the best of the best in the online space,
and pouring forth a couple of lifetimes worth of content, all while attaining pretty much every one of my own life goals I set out to achieve …
I still never caught her.
Can I tell you something else? For anyone nodding sagely at how the missing piece was obviously always true relationship with God? Yes it WAS, and IS, and only ever CAN be, but to be honest a lot of my days in learning my new identity in Him have ALSO been in pursuit of being ‘that girl’.
I simultaneously turn up my nose at religious ideas of what it means to be holy, because I KNOW Jesus is not about ‘doing it right’ (in that way), whilst also catching myself pursuing HER still.
“Did I catch the right message? Get the definite Holy Spirit download? Spend enough time in prayer and the Word to know I’m really IN? Repent fully for the hustle which was never actually what I came here to do? Put on my Spirit-led lens just so? Are we there yet? Are we there yet? Am I her yet?!”
Ah, but she’s so close! I can see her, just over the horizon? Shimmering. Sparkling. Waiting to REFRESH me because I can finally settle down into the bit where I made it!
Don’t you see her too? Singing her beautiful song, drawing you near?!
And then there is this.
And in the still.
In the moment.
We call now.
What is the message for THIS day?
What is the actual thing you’d just write,
create,
sell,
say,
or do,
if you could just relax in being you?
What would it be if you knew that it’s not actually on you to strive and REACH her,
but that in all your messy, imperfect, random or rambly, ‘what even is that’ being TODAY,
you were already okay?
This,
is resting in God.
This,
is identity no longer in crisis.
This,
is the place to once again come back to,
and act from,
now.
Yes. I’ve spent 20 years .. 30 … 45 … a lifetime … trying to figure out how to be that girl.
But do you know what else I’ve done, the whole time?
Shrugged it off and just gone with who I am anyway right now.
So here I am once more.
Saying hi once more.
This is me once more.
And here is what I have to say once more.
If you too have been called to be a messenger, of any form,
I suggest you could just do the same.
Now don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.
Kat
PS.
Warrior Daughters Rising is here.
6 weeks 1:1 with me.
Crazy pricing!
All in,
to just say YES,
and flow fire ROAR forth,
with what is in you.
It’s time to wake UP sister.
The voice you have?
Is the one for today.
www.katrinaruthministries.com/warriordaughtersrising
Pre-work /time together starts this week.
