The presence of God is everywhere and all around us, He goes before and beside and beyond us, and His goodness and mercy follow us all the days of our lives.
I am talking, of course, to those who have chosen Him.
His ways are higher, His thoughts are higher, He has a way when we see no way, He IS the way.
He is my way, the only way I want, the way I want to walk in for all of my days as I say yes Lord, yes, to the path He has set out for me, the calling He has given me, the days He has written for me.
And yet,
I find myself, at times, turning away.
Not deliberately I suppose. The days of active rebellion against the Lord are over, praise be to Him!
But rebellion is not always overt.
Does that make it any better? If we can say ‘oh, it was so subtle that I didn’t notice I was disobeying God, or walking outside of His will’? Actually I don’t think so. If anything, the so-called subtle rebellion … the gradual slipping into our own will or way again … the ‘surely God meant’ … is more dangerous, more indicative that we are deceived. Just look to the Garden :). (Of Eden, not The Secret Garden haha).
For me, how this often comes about is a sort of “lalalala, I can’t hear you God”.
“I’m just gonna keep on doing this thing, press forward with this thing, stay in agreement with this thing, even though I feel the pull of the Holy Spirit within me, but I just … don’t wanna quite look at that”.
Either because it feels too hard. I don’t want to. It will cause me to displease people (or think that I will). It in some way threatens my idea of SELF. Or perhaps because it feels like I can’t afford to.
Earlier today, in my second teaching for the day, which was in The Secret Garden, and was a ‘Conversation on Repentance and Derailment of Destiny’, I shared that God was showing me we do this – refuse to fully turn to Him or look at Him – in areas where we are giving more credence to something other than Him.
One of the many journal prompts from the notes He gave me for that training is “where are you leading yourself right now and God is not”?
Me, I was doing this once more to do with self-sufficiency.
Picking up the ‘old Kat’. Oh, but don’t worry – God version!
Ha.
Yes, that’s right.
I’m canceling my comeback.
That was a Kat idea, and it began to feel like the dead work it was quite quickly. Took me a minute to pick up on that!
It’s a funny thing, trying to walk a tightrope of being who you think you should be or even who ‘surely God means you should be’, and actually just BEING,
who and what God says.
Nothing added.
No ‘but it would make sense to also’
No ‘surely God wants me to reach people in THAT way!’
No concern for your own provision or worth or how you give value or any of it!
Just – what He says.
It’s not easy I suppose, to put down the ‘you’ things. Especially when there seem so many good, or important, reasons to do them.
But it is simple.
Even more so when the Spirit of God is workin’ on you relentlessly from the inside out to bring you back to alignment because you repeat prayed that He should do so, and should cause anything of you to break, shake, be removed!
Just a suggestion.
Maybe you’ve noticed I’ve been mostly offline for nearly 2 weeks now.
This wasn’t planned, although it was a logical follow on to the settlement of my warehouse 12 days ago (big and God-led transition!) and also my arrival in my hometown for a week plus of family and friend things the same day.
At some point through that week in Melbourne – which was last week – I started to see once more, without eyes you understand, in the space which God was giving me.
“It’s the prophetic”.
“It’s really ONLY the prophetic”.
Meaning,
I could see, ever more clearly, and yes with some … discomfort, especially given everything I excitedly threw out there the weeks prior …
that really all that ‘she’s back’ stuff was a Kat thing.
“When you quit a job”,
He said,
“you can’t just go back because you suddenly felt like maybe you should do another day in the office after all”.
insert all the sighs and exhales and grimaces! Of self-irritation, not of any desire NOT to follow His leading!
So, no.
I’m not back.
I take it back that I’m back.
The old man of me is dead, crucified at the foot of the cross, and I have repented to God for once more trying to resurrect it!
Now I say sorry to you. But also – ah, what a joy and a blessing it is that God always leads me to simply share the truth of this journey with you!
I appreciate that.
As for me?
Well, as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.
As for me and the house of my ONLINE space, WE will serve the Lord.
you quit that life.
You resigned.
“Where I’m taking you those things can’t come”.
It’s the prophetic.
It’s the prophetic.
It’s the prophetic.
He has made me to be His voice. And as He so aptly pointed out to me last week sometime, “the voice of the Lord does not have a side hustle pursuing her own calling”.
So stay, if you like, I do hope you stay awhile.
It’s the writing and speaking and outpouring of whatever the Lord says for me as His voice.
Of course it is The Secret Garden, and perhaps, simply, it’s time you joined us.
It is also right now my new course, As Far as The Eye Can See, which God gave me some few weeks ago and which has been on hold as He rearranged me. We are now just beginning!
I’ve decided to change this to donation only. Whatever you decide is the correct amount. There is a button for this on the page. If you already paid at the set amount, please have NO qualms in messaging me to let me know your chosen donated amount and if there is a difference we can part refund it, or put it towards something else!
Of course if you are in The Secret Garden you receive this course free, along with many other paid courses and bonuses.
What else?
Oh, I dunno, just that always thing of LOOK WHAT GOD DID!
And what a GOOD good thing it was,
is,
and is to come.
Now don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.
Kat
