I’ve been learning to walk with Jesus.
He’s been TEACHING me to walk with Jesus.
I’ve been learning to put aside my every breath,
moment,
thought,
and wait on Him.
What’s beautiful is … I don’t have to try. I don’t figure it out. I just say yes.
Some times,
I think I am crazy.
Lazy.
Filled with fantasy,
or looking for excuses.
It would be so easy to pick back up and DO.
But in the places where I have said yes Lord YOU,
I am seeing myself sink in.
I am noticing a kind of continual conversation, turning to, seeing of His face, rhythm of heavenly language ever more bubbling through, that is just … more.
A LOT more.
I am noticing that as I fall asleep, or as I wake,
He is already there.
And we pick up,
where we left off,
which was never,
because He always just IS.
I am noticing also – and this one was fascinating to me! – that when I entertained some thinking which was very much NOT of Him, it just kind of turned …
into proclaiming
declaring
and decreeing
the things of God
It was actually quite funny. If I would tell you the exact situation! After three times of this occurring,
it wasn’t even a matter of me ‘trying’ to stop those wrong thoughts.
I just praised God.
I’ve been learning to walk in arm with Jesus.
He is ever there and never not.
I see Him,
seated in my car
or a corner of the room
or by my side
or sitting back
or guiding me forward on a path which is lit on both sides by holy fire,
so I can’t derail
When I drive alone,
it’s with a full car
angels in every seat and Jesus just – there!
When I look around in the spirit,
wherever I’m at,
I am surrounded
by His presence
His angels
His favour
HIM
A little while back I asked the Father –
“Help me to know JESUS more! Lord I want greater intimacy with Jesus, with you, with your Spirit! I want to TRULY understand the shocking reality we are in. And who you ARE!”
When I pray any kind of ask or seeking or request,
it is always with a given of “and do whatever you need to do in me to allow this to occur!”
Break what needs breaking.
Take what needs taking.
Shake what can be shaken.
And WAKE,
your Spirit of truth in me.
Sometimes I look around and I think …
eek! I’m not really doing ANYTHING!
I mean … dialling back this whole online thang a lil bit is okay, but this much? Really?! Girl you’re so far leaned back you’re nearly feet up in the air! You need to get up and do SOMETHING, for real for real!
How does a whole ‘nother day … week … multiples of ’em pass and I STILL DID BASICALLY NOTHING?
I get that whole He is provision thing (AND HE IS) but surely I need to pull my socks up at SOME point? Anyone? Anyone?!
And then I pause.
I look around.
And I see … sense … feel … know
JESUS
where before it was OH so me,
and all I had to do,
and be.
Every day He is coming more into focus,
and the only lens I see,
or want to.
Where have I been?
I’ve been learning to walk with Jesus.
Now don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.
Kat
PS.
The Secret Garden is the place to be gorgeous.
I taught live in there again this morning … as I do most weeks … and again,
Holy Spirit moved.
Where you are meant to be?
Where the things are you seek?
In Him.
In Him.
In Him.
And I hear the Lord saying right now …
Slow down.
Slow down.
Slow down.
Won’t you catch my beat?
Come see what He has for you,
in all that He IS for you,
and the place He had me make for you,
at https://katrinaruthministries.com/thesecretgarden
